Category: Hurt


Today has been the worst day of my life. Well let me tell you readers… Love Stinks. I think i should start from the beginning of this story…

I met John through a friend, so we’ll say. He was quite sweet to me and it was very easy to talk to him and everything. This guy was perfect. He was sweet, attractive and seemed like he cared as well as some other element that I will not mention. He was perfect!!!! That probably should have been my red flag though. We talked on the phone, texting and actual talking, quite often. His voice was actually soothing for some wierd reason i will never understand.

It wasn’t long before he started calling me baby and baby and lover. Every time he called me this, it warmed me up and it made me so so happy. It made me feel like he wanted me and he cared and he actually wanted to be with me. I started to call him by the same names and it made me even more happier. He also moved very quickly on telling me that he loved me. It was random and i did not expect it.

Recently, i met up with him. He lives in Virginia while i am in Maryland. I brought my friend along and it was going okay. I was nervous and so was he, or so I thought. We walked around the mall near where he lived and it was good. I was enjoying actually seeing him and i thought he was enjoying it right back. We then left and had to drop him off at his “bible study”. He was there for about an hour.

Meanwhile, me and my friend, Bridget, and I went to the bank to check how much money i had in my checking account and to RadioShack to get a new phone case for my phone. I got one and it was a nice red color with a hard back. Its a really good case, by the way.

After John got done with his “Bible Study”, we got him back and drove to Red Robin. I was kinda hungry and wanted to eat something as i was still getting over a nasty hangover. While we were driving to Red Robin, he put his hat on me, which made me giggle because HE put HIS hat on ME. I was in heaven. I felt like the night was going so well and my friend liked him and i needed her approval before i continued and she approved. This was gold to me. My friend Bridget got a burger and i got the chicken basket and shared with John. This was also something cute i think we did. It made me happy and i was excited that it was going so well.

The night was coming to an end and we drove John home since he didn’t have a car. When we got there, it made me sad that the night was over. I wasn’t ready to go. I hugged him goodbye and it was fantastic. That was the best hug i’d ever gotten from a guy that i was falling for. He was perfect but it didn’t end there. We hugged again and this time was even better. I said “I don’t want to go home” and he said, ” i know babe.” and he rubbed my back like he was nurturing me. It was absolutely perfect.

As we drove away, the song Kiss Goodnight by Gloriana came on the Radio. A perfect song it was, too. Its a song about a guy and girl going on a first date and he told her goodnight. As he started to drive away, he realized that he didn’t kiss her and he wanted to so he turns around and he goes up to her house, knocks on the door and kisses her. It was perfect and i thought it was a sign because song after song was perfect relating to some kind of dating and how they were in love. I was in a giggly mood and in that intoxicating happiness because things were so perfect. The only unperfected thing is that my phone died and he asked me to text him and i couldn’t.

Bridget and i rushed home. I dropped her off at her house and thanked her multiple times for coming with me to meet up with him. As soon as i got home, i texted him and told him how much of a good time i had that day. He said the same and said some golden words i will never forget. “I was going to kiss you before all y’all left.” This sent me reeling head over heels. I loved him to death. The night was absolutely perfect. We talked on the phone and we were going back and forth on how good the date was. He said he was nervous around me and i thought it was cute because i was very nervous around him.

The next day, we texted again and i thought i had to go into work but i didn’t. I was planning to get his birthday present. I was going to get him some cologne and a Tap Out Hat because he was into Mixed Martial Arts and the Cologne was more for me so he could smell-oh-so-irresistible though he told me he didn’t want a present but i figured we were together and wanted to please him. I went to target and while i was there he called me sexy and sent a picture of himself and i called him sexy back. When i got home i sent him one back and he called me So Sexy again. I couldn’t sleep however because later that night he had not texted me in around 6-7 hours and this unsettled me because i knew something was wrong but was upset because he was not texting back. I did not get very good sleep that night. The next morning at 5 AM, he texted me, “We need to talk about usss” and this i knew was a surely bad thing. I knew what was coming next. I texted back, “So what? You want to end this thing?” followed by another giant pause of non texting. He finally replied by saying that he really cares for me and he doesnt think the relationship is going to work out. This honestly confused me because the day before he called me sexy and he told me he loved me. There was just too many things that just did not add up. He then told me the worst line i have ever heard in my life.

“If you want to know the honest truth, there’s someone else.” This devastated me and confused me. I thought he loved me. I thought i was the one he wanted. Not some other girl. I was hurt and i had a good cry over it. He also told me that he didn’t want to text or call anymore. This made it worse and with that we ended things and he wished that i find a guy that is really good for me because i am a nice girl.

I love him still. I’m lying to myself saying that i don’t but i do. I love him and in love with him and he is going to be so hard to replace. Somehow i will have to manage to move on. The last message i will send him before going on my way will be on his birthday. I want to show him im civil and will wish him the happiest birthday. Maybe it is then that he will see that he made a mistake but i will have to somehow muster up the courage to lift my head up high and move on. I can and i will. Yes it will be tough. Yes it is going to be hard to trust any guy ever again but it needs to be done to keep myself sane. I need to forget him even though we have been through a lot and we have been talking for 3 months. I can do it. In return i hope he is happy with the girl he chose.

Love Stinks Readers. Don’t ever get comfortable with your stance in a relationship because as soon as you get comfy, it changes. Take this to heart and trust your gut. I didn’t and i got hurt. A lesson that i will remember.

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